Inhaling Reality

In the Name of God, The Beneficent, The Most Merciful

All praises belongs to Allah, the Lord and Sustainer of the Heavens and Earth and all that exists, He whose guidance we depend on, and upon whom we are all entirely dependent. May His peace be upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad and his family and companions.

The time has come, yet again, for me to discontinue writing here for some time best known to God. I am not travelling as I was the last time I paused this effort, nor am I attempting to pursue anything other than what most deem necessarily essential.

I fear that my words here may paint a picture that is not true of me or of the realities I attempt to discuss. I often speak of ideals, and though I attempt to make practical connections, I often fail. Such is the story of my life, and it shall remain as such unless I do something about it.

There are some who may read my words here and consider me pretentious, and perhaps they may be correct in their assessment. I do not want my words to come back to me, stare me in the face, and demand my response. I don't have the strength to face them in such a manner.

There are a lot of things that I have written here, in 112 posts over the past two and half years, but I must ask myself what my words have amounted to and where I am really going.

Travelling overseas to study (though half the time I wasn't studying), in my opinion, is not praiseworthy in and of itself. Our knowledge is only as good as what we act upon. And while I can claim ignorance in traditional knowledge, I cannot deny the life lessons that God has brought my way before, during, and after my travels and throughout my life.

Every breath is taking me closer to my grave, and if my words on this blog is all that speaks of my life, then I am in serious trouble.

It is time I turn to my Lord and beg His forgiveness for my mistakes, for my erroneous confidence in my misguided words, and for my many other shortcomings of which He is aware.

Those who have taken the time to read my ramblings here, forgive me for any wrong I may have caused you. I respect you, as silent as you are, knowing that we are travelling similar paths. I respect you for your character, humility, and your adab as you trek through this life, and I hope that perhaps I can share the same characteristics in my life at some point, insha'Allah.

May God grant the believers strength in their faith. May He guide those who are in earnest search of Him and His guidance. May the Almighty guide us to be only with those who help us through our journeys, and may He protect us from all that which distract us from making sincere efforts toward the ultimate goal of our existence. May He bless us all with a good ending, and take us back to Him in the best of states. May our return to Him be filled with a heavenly sweetness, and may His peace and blessings be upon His beloved, our Master Muhammad, and his family and companions, ameen.


Yusuf said...

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullah

I pray you're doing well, inshaAllah.

Some of your silent readers found many of your writings very inspiring and encouraging, MashaAllah. May Allah reward you abundantly! Hopefully you'll take a short break and get back to what you do best :).

Wishing you well in all your endeavors! May Allah bless you with good surprises in life and keep you away from bad ones, inshaAllah. And may He bless you with all the good things of this life and the next and keep you on sirat al mustakim. Ameen.

Farzeen said...

Wa 'alaykum assalaam wa rahmatuLlahi wa barakaatuh

JazakAllah khayr for the kind words and the du'as... and may He bless the entire ummah with of all that too, ameen.

Anonymous said...

Assalam 'alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

Dear Sister,
Just wanted to say your writings are very interesting and meaningful and i pray Allah rabul izzat blesses you and me and the whole of the muslim ummah with pure hearts to understand and follow the holy Quran and sunnah of the beloved Holy Prophet.
Eid Milad un Nabi Mubarak.

Jazak 'Allah.

Anonymous said...

As salaamu 'aleykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuhu

Forgive me for a comment not related to the post. There is an excellent new blog dedicated to a book called: *An Incomplete History: The Muslims of Spain Post 1492 in a Global Context and its Relevance to Muslims Today*

The situation of the Muslims living in the West today poses a striking similarity to the situation of the Muslims in Al- Andalus post 1492 (when the last Muslim ruler surrendered the last Muslim stronghold of Granada to King Ferdinand and Queen Isabella). This marked the official end to Islamic rule in Al- Andalus. However, this did not mean all the Muslims left Al Andalus in one go.

Muslims lived in Andalus for at least two hundred years after the fall (1492). Their lives were not easy. In many cases they were forced to give up their identities, could not practice Islam in public, they were not allowed to speak Arabic (and therefore could not pray in congregation) or even give their children Muslim names! So what began as tolerance for the practice of Islam in Al- Andalus and allowing for their affairs to be judged under Shari’ah courts (Capitulations of Granada) slowly but surely led to the persecution of the Muslims of Al-Andalus until no trace of Muslims in Andalus were to be found.

Sketched Soul said...

As-salaamu'alaykum wa Rahmatu Llahi wa Barakatuhu my dearest Farzeeeeeeeeen,

WHAT? How did I not know about this! umph..

Well, you know what's best for you (or I could tell you..haha).. May Allah make it easy for you. Ameen.

Lots of Love

Farzeen said...

Wa 'alaykum assalaam wa rahmatuLlahi wa barakaatuh

Mustafa: JazakAllahu khayr...and ameen to your du'a.

historyofandalus: Thanks for the info. It looks interesting.

Sketchy ;) ... well, looks like the exception has been posted today .. *ahem*..didn't last very long eh? haha.. anyway, it's an exception hopefully. And may He help us all, ameen! (Yes, you could tell me, but for my sanity, it's best I don't find ask :P)

Sketched Soul said...


Did you just call me 'sketchy'? :/


What do you mean for you SANITY.. haha :P

Love Farhana

Farzeen said...

wa 'alaykum assalaam wa rahmatullah

I did call you sketchy but then again I also typed 'find ask'... me no speak'a englis. For the record, I meant it as a word of endearment, dear :).

Sanity.. right, inhaling fixative fumes is sure to take care of that one right? :)

"Do you think that you will enter the Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They encountered suffering and adversity and were so shaken in spirit that even the Apostle and those of faith who were with him cried: 'When (will come) the help of God?' Ah! Verily the help of God is (always) near!" [2:214]



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